When I lie in bed at night I wonder if I ask too much of you.
Do I deserve your forgiveness on those harder days?
Did I deserve your small hand to reach up and wipe away the tears I tried to smile through?
Did I ask you to grow up too fast when my core was divided but you still needed me in yours?
I see your small face every night as I close my eyes.
But I’m learning to be gentle with myself.
How can I possibly make you understand that you’ve been the only teacher that’s awakened me.
The universe and all its wonders have nothing on you.
When I hold you close
and you hold me back
I grow in every space that was empty before you.
My weary soul becomes beautiful once more.
You may never understand how much I love you.
One day you will learn this truth,
I will always need you
more than you will need me.