We sat there waiting
Anticipating
Holding hands
Making plans
Decorating
Visualising
Making a nest
Being told by everyone,
I need to rest
And then it began
We’re holding hands
Again, but this time in pain
I feel crippled, yet strong
You’re placed in my trembling arms
Where you belong
I am awakened
Like never before
Cracked open with wounds
Exposed and raw
My eyes are twinkling
Blinking, leaking.
As they trace your face
Taking in every little bit
I don’t know what to say
So I whisper, “I did it”.
.
Here comes the rush of love
And uncertainty
As I come apart
That one people talk about
A work of art.
Listening to your little noises
The tiny squawks
The little yawns
Wondering how I could possibly
how I was before.
Though we will sit in shadows
We will come out the other side.
I’ll always show up for you
Even when I want to run and hide.
This journey will be a game of peek a boo,
I tell you.
Together we will find each other
One day at a time.
The room is quiet now
Husband snoring away in the chair
It’s like it’s only you and I here
I kiss your forehead
And we fall asleep
Artwork: Truly Elke