Not So Terrible
I know a lot is of expected of me
But I’m not really sure why.
I can see that it upsets you when it all gets too much.
But these feelings of mine are so big.
I don’t know what to do with them yet.
Can you show me?
Can you be there for me?
I’m trying to keep up,
But I don’t know how yet.
I still can’t do the things my older brother can.
It’s all so new, every experience, every day, and I’m taking it all in,
it’s a lot.
I’m pushing the boundaries you say, but I am learning, even if you don’t think I am.
I’m watching you,
I’m learning through you.
I really wish you would listen
But I don’t know how to communicate it all yet.
So I cry, I stomp my feet, I make a scene.
Everyone was small once, just like me.
Will I forget that one day too?
I know they’re staring, I don’t care.
I’m overwhelmed, and I’d love a cuddle.
I don’t understand when you tell me to stop crying.
Please let me.
Because I was set up to feel.
So don’t set me up to fail.
Just keep giving your love and encouragement.
Thank you for being patient, and even when you aren’t,
I know you’re human too.
Just like me.
Maybe it’s frustrating for you.
It’s frustrating for me too.
Thanks for not rushing me.
For remembering just how small I am.
For being the safest place I’ve known.
And remembering I’m not so terrible,
And that I’m only two.